是时候长大了

今天和老朋友出来见面
大家还是一样没变到，我说性格
她失恋了就有一个条件很好的男人追她
我在想如果有一天我失恋了会不会那样的幸运
还是只是一个人流泪痛苦？
我还年轻
我也不想每天都过得那么痛苦
就好像他们说的，每天吵架就哭那么痛苦干嘛？
你才十九岁需要为一个男人这样哭泣过得那么不开心吗？
倒不如甩了他找个条件更好的
或是一个人过自由自在要交男生朋友跟男生出去都没问题
是啊
我还年轻
我不能再这样痛苦的过了
要开始为自己想
不该什么都先为猪头着想了
我和他是两个人，不能把他当作我自己
不能好像没了他就会死了一样
我会努力的

不想再为你掉眼泪，我会假装自己过得很好

我已经快要放弃这段感情
付出，牺牲全都是多余的
每天哭，发脾气
我贫血晕倒没有关心没有体谅
我为他改变自己害羞少话的个性，但也只对他这样
我从不化妆到开始学着化妆改变发型
没有一句赞美之类的话
只是说，哦。。你化妆哦？
我的改变都是为了他，他却觉得理所当然
他累可以直接睡着，我不能
总是要我改变这个改变那个
心情不好就对我发脾气
不爱我了就说吧
何必折磨我
倒不如放我走让我解脱
你只不过是一个过客
是我傻，把你当作我的全部

不要烦我！

我只想过平凡开心日子有那么难吗？
为什么烦恼总是不停的缠着我
为什么我又不停的得罪人
为什么我跟他又不停的吵架？
我也很想知道我自己在搞什么
现在我只有仇人没有朋友了！
人家和男友家人关系那么好
我却越来越差
一些事情是他们不讲理还是我太过分？
看到我就好像看到仇人一样
这种生活我过得很累很想摆脱！
男友问我能怎么办
难道要他搬出去住吗？
那我又该怎么办？
难道只能和你分手吗？
Fuck off！！！！
我受够了！
我想要一个人！

一堆有害的垃圾，go away!

我也该习惯有伤心陪我的日子了
只要我任性，他就会说是我的错
那我什么都不管了好吗
根本没有人在乎我的感受
最后为你们这些人渣流泪
以后
我谁也不在乎

烂好人，滥好人，我再也不做好人

我是发神经，在脸书写了那样的状态
再也不主动联络任何人
为什么？
你们都不把我放在眼里
那些人
总是敷衍我
一个月发好几封祝福信息，没有回复
我不找人，就没人找我
我不跟你打招呼
你就把我当透明
我不跟你笑，你就对我摆臭脸
我找你出去，你就说没空
你找我出去，还要说，有空一定会找你出去哪里哪里
我傻傻的相信，痴痴的等
已经过了很久很久
我顿时知道这些不过只是敷衍！
我已经很肚淋了！
所以我做到很绝，你不把我当人看我为什么把你放在眼里？
管你是谁
管你是我小学朋友，好朋友，亲戚，男友家人等等
我都不会再做好人
Bullshit

0•3•1•9你不离，我定不弃

0319我和他在一起一周年的日子
简单的度过
没有吃什么好料的
先去走走再去玩水
怕水的我喜欢了在水里浮着的感觉
因为感觉很自由
哎呀，我懂就好
也很多年没玩水了，下水时竟然还发抖==
其实我原本是想去新加坡，然后去海边看日落
就这样简单的过
不过去新加坡也太累人了
难得啊，这两天没吵架
过后还会不会吵我也不知道，真累人
也不知道有什么好吵
自己也不是小孩了还用那种小孩pattern对他
我也在检讨自己了
包括对父母
今天我们难得开心，幸福＜3

Just a dream

I was thinkin about you, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, it was only just a dream.
travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, it was only just a dream.

I was at the top and I was like I’m at the basement.
Number one spot and now she found her a replacement.
I swear now I can't take it, knowing somebody's got my baby.
And now you ain't around, baby I can't think.
Shoulda put it down. Shoulda got that ring.
Cuz I can still feel it in the air.
See her pretty face run my fingers through her hair.

My lover, my life. My baby, my wife.
She left me, I'm tied.
Cuz I knew that it just ain't right.

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, it was only just a dream.
travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

When I be ridin man I swear I see her face at every turn.
Tryin to get my usher over, I can let it burn.
And I just hope she notice she the only one I yearn for.
Oh I miss her when will I learn?

Didn't give her all my love, I guess now I got my payback.
Now I'm in the club thinkin all about my baby.

Hey, she was so easy to love. But wait, I guess that love wasn't enough.

I'm goin through it every time that I'm alone.
And now i'm missin, wishin she'd pick up the phone.
But she made a decision that she wanted to move one.
Cuz I was wrong.

And I was thinkin about you, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, it was only just a dream.

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything.
I said, if you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything.

I was thinkin about you, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

And I was thinkin about you, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, it was only just a dream.